Grey Matters

In honour of our great white north, my home and native land. I want to wish all my fellow Canadians a wonderful day.

And to my favourite Canadian. Never change. Love ya Sid!

http://penguins.nhl.tv/team/console.jsp?&id=31987

Well it the first week of playoff with the Penguins and after a week of playing it looks like tomorrows gam my be the winning one of this series. The Pens have already won 3 out of 4 and the next game is going to be in Pittsburge so let the sea of white wash over our dear penguins and secure them their victory.

Also, guuuuhhhhhh. Look as his sweet fuzz. He's so adorable, and painfully gorgeous.

http://penguins.nhl.tv/team/console.jsp?catid=19&id=40493

So I know I haven't update you in a while and I have little to talk about as usual. But I just started my new term at uni and I'm loving my new English class about Literary Forms. And oddly enough there is this guy in the class that has a profile that reminds me of certain someone named Sidney Crosby.

Winter time may make me go into selective hibernation but thankfully I've had a hot ice god to keep me warm in these dark cold months. I know last year I was warming up to the sport and trying to find my reasons to watch but this year I have actively sought out my favourite Penguin and there's no turning back now. Ever since I saw him play for the first time in the New Year's Day classic, where he wore his baby blue uniform and helped the team win, I haven't been able to forget him and immediately fell for him. I have become his puck bunny.

Now I'm not new to Sidney's charms but it's take me a bit to commit to him and see how damn delicious he is. Being a Canadian gives me many chances to see Canada's golden child on tv, even if he's plays for an American city. He's growing into a hockey superstar and before he wins I want to see him before the world will. I still remember him from his rise to recognition when the hockey shut out brought the juniour Canadian team to nation-wide attention. With their win all over the Canadian sports news I couldn't help but notice the cute and humble hockey hero shine. And as the media followed him into the NHL and the Pittsbug Penguins I started to lose sight of him but never forgot. But as I mentioned before last year brought me a whole new appreciation for my country's favourite sport and let have some sweet eye candy in return. There was competition though with another hockey player, named Valtteri Filpulla, who I had crunched on for a while. But after seeing the Penguins lose to the Red Wings, I lost all my lust for Valtteri and fell in love with Sidney. To lose like that and still remain such a champion completely solidified my adoration and affection for him. All I can think about is him now. Just look and love it.







I'm melting, excuse me.

Well who would have ever imagined I would be making a post about hockey, let alone showing any interest in it.

But with many of my sudden fancies with sports the players have to hot if I am to get anything out of it. Playing them is one thing but if I am going to watch it there better hottie to give me eye candy.

So as I am happily engaged in the playoffs between the Penguins and RedWings, here my favoruite player in the NHL. Valtteri Filppula of the Detroit Red Wings.





Edit- I am so over him. I hate the Red Wings now. Thank god they won. I might've still be into Val.

I recently became aware of this beautiful boy named Mitch Hewer of the hit British teen drama, Skins. He plays the fun, bright and talented Maxxie, who is young gay character that everyone can't help but fall in love with. The series is already in Season Two and this might be his last year on the show, as it's been announced that the current cast will not star in the third season. So in case you never heard of Skins make sure you look it up it's quite a cool and wild show.

Here's Maxxie!

Well at Just Jared they're reporting that Orli has been signed to be the title characer in The Prince of Persia.

http://justjared.buzznet.com/2008/04/07/orlando-bloom-prince-of-persia/#comments

Based on the awesome video game, which is sort of a mix of Aladdin and The Matrix, this new movie should be just as amazing. And Orlando is really typecasting himself now, what with another fantasy-period piece, he knows how to pick them. This movie may also spawn some sequels, so this may make his third trilogy for Orli. Time will tell.

So I guess I should update. Even though I know no one really reads this journal, least of all me. But for the sake of writing I'll just update all the new things in my life right now.

The biggest and brightest is my neice who cam on the November 6th and is growing with everyday. She is the cutest, smarteses, and funniest baby in the world, but very distracting. She didn't let my focus on school as much as I wanted to but I think I'll get through this year okay. Next year should be so much better though. I'm going to miss uni these next few months, especially with the weather clearing up. Hopefully by September I'll have lost the weight I gained from the stress of this year. Other than those two things everything else doesn't really compare and has also been on the back burner so I don't have really much to say about my social or love life. But now that spring has come on I plan on shifting my priorities around for some much needed fun and friends.

In anticipation of the new movie, The Golden Compass, I have discovered my daemon at the official website.

His name is Achaean, the fox. The colour may be a little too fiery for me but a silver fox may be more my personality.

I have been meaning to update for a while but I never seem to have time.

Well beside university I've been so preoccupied with finding beauty and thought I'ld share some of my recent discoveries.

I saw this gorgeous male model in a Hugo Boss ad and went mad trying to find his name. Anyways, his name is Raoul Meier and he's all mine, so enjoy the sight of him but the rest is all for me.

http://www.placemodels.com/models/view/173

After dehyrdating myself I glimpse through other profiles of male models and the beautifully androgynous Paul Boche. He's stunning, aint he?

http://www.nextmodels.com/modules/models/?state=model&m_id=2469

And not to exclude the ladies I learned the name of the Asian model from the cool and sexy Old Navy commercials. This is Jarah Mariano.

http://www.asianbite.com/default.asp?display=807

This is dedicated to my family.
All those who love me.
Where would I be?
Without my family.


I am grateful for the loved ones in my life who love, accept and appreciate me. When you give love you will get it back and that is such a beautiful feeling.

Last weekend, my sister had her baby shower and many of her friend and out relative were there. It was such a wonderful day, and even though I was busy running around getting things done, I had enough time to enjoy the warmth of such a love-fest. I know when my sis does have her baby there will be someone more to love but that just build upon our web of love and who better than a baby to shower with affection and attention. I also am happy to hear that my other sister who has been living in New York will be returning to Toronto back in mid-Autumn. So the house will be full whole again. I am sure she's just as excited to dote upon our new niece or nephew. The only one missing is my father who passed away, but we know he is happy with us. We have felt it.

And in remembrance of him and all good fathers who care and love for their families, I wanted to share this video link. It's a surprisingly sweet and lovely Tide commercial about a father and son. The song in the background is epspecially poignant to hear.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=34f8CHTqbnA

I am slighty nervous for tomorrow.

Last week I applied at a new hospital that specializes in transsexual medical issue and I met with my new doctor and her cute medical student/aid.
So as part of their procedure they need all my medical history, past and present. So, this means I have to get a physical tomorrow with the cute student doctor. I will definitely take a long shower in the morning, and try not eat anything, I look thick enough in my Buddha zone. If he asks me to take of my clothes I might change my mind about the whole thing but hopefully that might not be neccessary. I haven't had a physical in so long and my body is very unique so I don't want many people looking at it. I want to keep the perfect illusion for him but at the same time I have been single for ages and I wouldn't mind a cute guy getting to third base with me. I don't know I still rather not get naked and whatever happens tomorrow I'll try not to make a big deal about it. Maybe if I just sing Olivia Newton John's song all day tomorrow it will take away the nerves a bit.

Why can't there be more trans doctors out there?

Because I couldn't keep quiet any longer. I had to share this chance discovery I made on Youtube yesterday.

For all those that may look upon this and are into boy's love I high recommend you start watching any video about the teenage gay relationship between Luke and Noah on the soap opera As The World Turns.

Here's a clip of the big kiss that came after weeks of lead up and rising tension. Trust me after you see the clip and look at the two cuties you'll have to start at their story.



If you click on the name of video provider, LukeVanFan, it will lead you to the first part of their story. But be warned their love story is still in progress and if you start watching the show they getting closer so now is a great time to be hooked though you might have to what for the videos after each day. I never had a reason to watch As The World Turns but now it looks like do. So help I'll put with all the romantic cliched straight stories as long as I can get me some boy's love in the flesh and on the small screen.

I know I have been quiet around her but it's really nice having something special to write about.

My life is going as well as usual. There are many good things happening with me and it's nice feeling Spring around the corner.

Anyways, what I needed to express today is how much I enjoy watching The Learning Channel. In the past year or so they started showing interesting documentaries about people with different or unique lives. One that amazed was they life of feral children, who have lived devoid of human interaction or society and nurtured by nature. It was such a fascinating topic I did an essay about it in one of sociology classes. There is also a show about little people and their family, which consists of one little child and his regular sized twin brother, as well as two other sibling of regualar height. They have such an amazing life on their farm and all the things they have done in showing what little people go through is very enlightening. Recently they started a show, documenting other unique families, one that has a transgendered mother and a regular mother, another family of Wiccans, and a familiy with a rare genetic trait that makes their hands look like lobster claws. Each family went through their own unique challenges and struggles trying to live in a world unfamiliar with differences and seeing how they respond to those who judge them is inspiring. Families come in all shape and size and colour, why would anyone look down on them? Currently, on every Monday is a show that documents the lives of different children and their lives. It looks very cute and heartwarming, as it is all about these kids and told through their voices. Just watching them being themselves give me hope that this next generation will continue to open the world to all people and make life more bright and happy.

My mom and I went to get our photos updated for our new passports. Canada has recently upgraded the restrictions on Canadians travelling to the US and my mom is hoping to go to Chile for the spring or better yet my grandmother's birthday in Marce. So she is being clever to get it sorted now rather than later. My own passport has expired a year or so back and the photo was from another era in my life so I wanted something better. We went to our local mall to geth quick and simple photos and they turned out as expected, neutral. They had to be as you can't have any facial expression or distracting clothes or hair. I of course looked round as a dish just like my mom, I inherited my face from her after all and she looked slightly flushed as she was hyper as usual upon arriving at the place. But it was fun and the pics are small and privy only to aiport staff and the occasion border patrol people. Let's hope they are all women.

Ironically enough this week I have been feeling inspired and am practicing drawing faces and e bodies again. I am currently working on eyes and hair, since they can make the whole character and have started developing a small style. I love the simplistic lines of manga art but prefer the features of Western comic, so I trying merge them into something easy to draw and full of detail. I am even considerin buying some "How to..." books. I need to get better. Can't let the boys have all the fun.

This is way Italian men are at the top of my menu at the moment. Look how hot they make them over there and how sexy they can look together when they are stranded on a deserted island.

These two lovely specimens are two Italian actors that took part in a Celebrity Survivor type show in Italy. It was supposedly a big hit and I can tell why. Half naked man candy. And the stuff that slashy dreams are made of. But as much as I enjoyed their stay on the island they look much better when they are well groomed and not on the survivor diet.

Tall dark and handsome is named Walter Nudo and the pretty blond is Davide Silvestri.





This is Walter the first day on the island.


This is Davide before leaving for the island.